I have just decided to start this blog because I think it might be a good way to express my feelings and hopefully find a few friends who may be in a similar situation as me. It might not be of much interest to anyone else but I think it might make me feel better!
I'll start with what has been happening the last few days. My boyfriend Leigh and I just got back from a trip to a music festival in Holland on Monday night, it was the first time we've been away together and it was really good. Anyway, he started feeling ill with stomach pains and sickness when we were on our way home from the airport. He got worse through the night and by Tuesday morning he was in agony. I don't drive, but luckily Leighs cousin was able to take us to the hospital where he was put on a drip and given morphine for the pain. They ran lots of tests and eventually we saw a doctor who told us that Leigh has pancreatitis caused by heavy drinking for a number of years. He must stop drinking for good or it could kill him. At first I think he was in denial but he seems to have accepted the situation now. He's got to stay in hospital until Sunday and that's when it gets scary, he's in hospital at the moment with people watching him so he can't have a drink, but what happens when he gets out and he's signed off work and bored. It's not that I think he's weak but when he's fed up and lonely he's going to get tempted. I've already told him that I'm not going to drink anymore but I can only do so much, he has to do this himself and I'm scared!